Anyone There?

Dear Bleaders,

I have not fallen off the face of the earth. I have not been traveling around the world climbing mountains and swimming with sharks. I have not joined a convent or became a late night dancer. I have not been cast by The Rock of Love (eventhough I have a secret crush on Bret Michaels because he wears more eyeliner than I do). The truth is, I just fell face first into a pile of drama. AKA, my life.

As much as I would love to post about everything that has happened in that past few weeks and months: relationships-ending and stalling, jobs-changing, friendships-changing.....some things are just better left unsaid.

I've had a rough past few weeks. Days where rejection weighed heavy, choices seemed mundane, and my heart yearned for more. But in the end, there has been some beauty in all of this. And even though ugliness surrounds it at best, the beautiful moments have created optimism. And with optimism comes hope. And with hope comes faith. And with faith, comes a big bottle of Merlot.

So no matter how much I want to stagnate or reverse things, I can't. But I can take the life I've been given, the opportunities I've ceased, and I fill it with new experiences and relationships and jobs and career directions and creativity and a love for myself that surpasses what anyone else could ever feel for me. Are we getting somewhere?

So as much as I would love to update you all on the past few weeks. I'll just have to let your imagination wonder. Wonder about "my experience with baby powder and a pool shark named Carol." Wonder about my "disappearing act face first on my desk keyboard." Wonder about "the sex talk with my BFF." It's all serious story material girls. But it's just not to be.

I will however tell you about how incredibly lucky I am to have such wonderful blog friends that have left sweet comments (i'm slowly going through my reader!), sent the most sincere emails, given me fabulous awards (that I will post soon!) and simply reached out to me just because they care. Wow, I'm pretty blessed ladies.

With that being said, I owe it to ya'll. I owe you fun, witty posts about my ever-changing life and toe-nail colors. And you'll get it. Because honestly, I've missed you. Just a little bit. But let's keep that between us.....

So in the meantime, keep checking back. Because baby's got back....and it's good, real good to be back....